Saturday, December 31, 2011

I Resolve Not to Resolve

Resolutions.  Goals.  To Do Lists.  Planners.  Dreams.

Its that time again when people make promises to themselves in an attempt to make their lives/self better.  Unfortunately, not all succeed.  And in turn, feel worse about themselves.  Then people get it stuck in their head that they have to wait till next January 1st  to try again. 

Why do we have to wait? 

The are things I want to do or be; and put off year after year.  This year (now less than an hours left) I decided; I was not waiting for a publicly designated day to make changes in my life. 

I did set off on this path earlier this year, but have only been able to give my commute time to it.  So a few weeks ago I started actively working more and more while opening up to others what I am doing.  I am not one to let others in.

I even spent almost 2 hours today, going from store to store to purchase a necessary tool for my work.  I found finally found it.  I also have 2 people offering to help me. 

My advice, don't let the closing year and a bottle of champagne convince you to set deadlines on your happiness or well-being.  Just like we should carry Christmas in our hearts every day.  We should wake up every morning with the belief and confidence that we can make life changes and/or start or re-start good habits as needed.

Monday, April 11, 2011

Never Again Poem

Never again shall I see
a blood red moon
touch a sapphire sea
or on a crisp night
hear chirps sweetly sung
as earthly colors orange and brown
are chaotically flung
Never again into your eyes shall I stare
melt under warm lips
run fingers through your hair
I smile and whimper inside
as I say my last goodbyes
to a world so enchanted
A world I took for granted

Sunday, April 10, 2011

Time Poem

4:19 a.m.

Not sure how long
I’ve been tossing
I know it makes him stir
I’m awake
My mind reeling
Something’s there
A spark
A thought
A start
Need to write it down
Before it seeps away
Into the darkness
Of a too early morn
I don’t want to interrupt his slumber
Less than an hour till the alarm
Hopping repetition and retention
Will keep these words with me
As I stray along the silence
Losing knowingness
Waiting to wake 

Ready to celebrate poem

2011 April PAD Challenge: Day 8

Looking forward to

One semester till the first 8th grade graduation
Sweet 16’s on the horizon
Cars and graduating high school
Hope the celebrations never end

Special Evening

Butterflies in my stomach
Anticipation in my fingertips
Watching the long minutes
Slowly tick the hours by
My mind is racing
I laid out my dress
My jewelry and shoes
Prepped my smaller purse
One thing not worked out
As I mentally see styles of my hair
Maybe I should not wear mascara
What if I cry
Remembering what led to this
Happy tears could downpour
and run
Did I check my stockings
After a while my head swims
While the room spins
Everyone is happy and dancing
Getting tired
My feet will ache
I won’t want the night to end
But first
I must finish the work on my desk
1 hour till I leave
4 hours till I arrive

What if Poem

2011 April PAD Challenge: Day 7

What if it’s the end?

Trees topple over, uprooted
and the ground unfastens
swallowing up houses and parks
Towers turn to rubble on the streets
The seas invade the land, as if to wash it all away
Dust blocks the sun, now nothing will grow
What if Mother Earth turned against us?
Would it be our end?

Don't (blank), (blank) Poem

2011 April PAD Challenge: Day 6

Don’t settle, hold out for

Don’t give in because it’s easier
Don’t be accepting because 
it’s as close as you think you can get
Your dreams are not out of reach,
they are attainable 
If you are not getting out, what you put in
If it leaves you wanting, and your heart waning 
Then realize, it’s not enough
Be fulfilled
Be over-satisfied
Why settle for passable
When life can be rewarding