One More Time (unfinished)

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I Resolve Not to Resolve

Resolutions.  Goals.  To Do Lists.  Planners.  Dreams.

Its that time again when people make promises to themselves in an attempt to make their lives/self better.  Unfortunately, not all succeed.  And in turn, feel worse about themselves.  Then people get it stuck in their head that they have to wait till next January 1st  to try again. 

Why do we have to wait? 

The are things I want to do or be; and put off year after year.  This year (now less than an hours left) I decided; I was not waiting for a publicly designated day to make changes in my life. 

I did set off on this path earlier this year, but have only been able to give my commute time to it.  So a few weeks ago I started actively working more and more while opening up to others what I am doing.  I am not one to let others in.

I even spent almost 2 hours today, going from store to store to purchase a necessary tool for my work.  I found finally found it.  I also have 2 people offering to help me. 

My advice, don't let the closing year and a bottle of champagne convince you to set deadlines on your happiness or well-being.  Just like we should carry Christmas in our hearts every day.  We should wake up every morning with the belief and confidence that we can make life changes and/or start or re-start good habits as needed.

Never Again Poem

2011 April PAD Challenge Day 10




What I’ll miss

Never again shall I see

a blood red moon

touch a sapphire sea

or on a crisp night

hear chirps sweetly sung

as earthly colors orange and brown

are chaotically flung

Never again into your eyes shall I stare

melt under warm lips

run fingers through your hair

I smile and whimper inside

as I say my last goodbyes

to a world so enchanted

A world I took for granted

Time Poem

2011 April PAD Challenge: Day 9

4:19 a.m.

Not sure how long

I’ve been tossing

I know it makes him stir

I’m awake

My mind reeling

Something’s there

A spark

A thought

A start

Need to write it down

Before it seeps away

Into the darkness

Of a too early morn

I don’t want to interrupt his slumber

Less than an hour till the alarm

Hopping repetition and retention

Will keep these words with me

As I stray along the silence

Losing knowingness

Waiting to wake 

Ready to celebrate poem

2011 April PAD Challenge: Day 8

Looking forward to

One semester till the first 8^th grade graduation

Sweet 16’s on the horizon

Cars and graduating high school

College

Marriage?

Grandchildren

Hope the celebrations never end

Special Evening

Butterflies in my stomach

Anticipation in my fingertips

Watching the long minutes

Slowly tick the hours by

My mind is racing

I laid out my dress

My jewelry and shoes

Prepped my smaller purse

One thing not worked out

As I mentally see styles of my hair

Maybe I should not wear mascara

What if I cry

Remembering what led to this

Happy tears could downpour

and run

Did I check my stockings

After a while my head swims

While the room spins

Everyone is happy and dancing

Getting tired

My feet will ache

I won’t want the night to end

But first

I must finish the work on my desk

1 hour till I leave

4 hours till I arrive

What if Poem

2011 April PAD Challenge: Day 7

What if it’s the end?

Trees topple over, uprooted
and the ground unfastens
swallowing up houses and parks
Towers turn to rubble on the streets
The seas invade the land, as if to wash it all away
Dust blocks the sun, now nothing will grow
What if Mother Earth turned against us?
Would it be our end?

Don't (blank), (blank) Poem

2011 April PAD Challenge: Day 6

Don’t settle, hold out for

Don’t give in because it’s easier
Don’t be accepting because 
it’s as close as you think you can get
Your dreams are not out of reach,
they are attainable 
If you are not getting out, what you put in
If it leaves you wanting, and your heart waning 
Then realize, it’s not enough
Be fulfilled
Be over-satisfied
Why settle for passable
When life can be rewarding